Beyoncé’s Homecoming album has been the soundtrack to the last several weeks of my life. I am not a member of the Beyhive, but the excellence that drips from the album is invigorating. Familiar with her musical portfolio, this rearrangement that has been blasting through my headphones is even more inspiring than the accompanying performance for me. It dropped at the perfect time in my life.
Lately when people have asked me how I’m doing, I answer, “Gratefully busy.” Surviving off naps, my days blending together, never seeming to catch up on my overflowing to do list I take time to let God know how grateful I am for times like this. It has been a bumpy road to say the least. I did not always enjoy it. In fact, most times I did not. As a control freak, my life has been planned. It is not a cliche when they say if you want to make God laugh tell Him your plans. Life checked me with no remorse for my enthusiastic naivety. I prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed. In a daze of confusion of why my time and God’s time did not align, I began to panic on whether my visions were even achievable. The road took me to places that I felt I had no business in. My parents who are much wiser, could see past where I was when I did not. So, they could not understand the depth of discontentment, which increased my already palatable frustration.
Yet, here we are. Today. Graduation Day. Not just from my Masters program, but from adult puberty. When I created A Word with Mobosinuola, my first episode had to be on this state of being that defined my life for the last 5 years. I know I am not the only one. It is necessary for me to give permission to others to bask in the sting of growing pains then say alright get over it, get up and go.
Recently, I watched Trevor Noah interview Oprah. During their conversation Oprah talked about the first time she was on a talk show. She mentions the feeling of, “I have come home to myself.” That resonated with me quite powerfully. It’s what this journey is about. I completely co-sign her sentiment when she shared, “That’s what everyone is looking for. The path that allows you to come home to yourself.” Even as she tells the story of how she ended up on the talk show, this time it is revealed to me that though it was a demotion from man, it was a promotion from God.
That’s what everyone is looking for. The path that allows you to come home to yourself.
OPRAH WINFREY
As an avid reader since childhood, I love the metaphor of life as books, chapters, etc. For me Graduation Day is the last chapter of a book that concludes the chronicles of a Volume that I will leave Untitled.
This new volume is titled, Homecoming: Coming Home to Myself.
The first chapter is called, The Awakening. Stay tuned.
